"I have always thought that if I had chosen the week where I will have another life, should be in the hearts of her husband is full of tenderness and full of life look forward to. In fact, I did not even see where a week and, Determined to give up on him ... ... "

. I simply do not want to hold her husband is not really a derailment, because I have the spirit of his betrayal.

. about: sunny million, female, 45 years old, freelance story purification 23 years ago, 10,000 have chosen to clear the skills to do her husband Liu Liming, who missed weeks. After marriage, Muna and her husband's life so that the couple's heavy Maogeshenli. Arrangements for the fate of the 10,000 who become clear weeks and neighbors, she began a decade-long unilateral Platonic Love. Ching Wan immersed in the spiritual world, where feelings and weeks between the spiritual understanding. Who knows, the outcome of the case embarrassing!

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. "I have always thought that if I had chosen the week where I will have another life, should be in the hearts of her husband is full of tenderness and full of life look forward to. In fact, I did not even see where a week and, Determined to give up on him ... ... "

. I lived in the north of the city near the railway station. As early as the death of his father, the home of 4 sisters, I am the youngest sister who I love very much. I lively, simple, carefree, and we have not talked about love. In 1983, I have a 20-year-old sister were married, my personal problem They have become the biggest heart, I arranged for each other all day long, I hope that as soon as possible to find a good home.

. that day in the summer, Sister Fengfenghuohuo went to my house, let me put on the most beautiful dress to her Jiazuo Ke. I find it very strange all the same family, it has taken so grand it? As soon as the door into her house, I saw a soldier sat bolt upright on the sofa, I would like to see, for my eldest sister of the original arrangement each. He Liu Liming, a unit of Anhui in the car when soldiers. Liu Liming looked ordinary, but all up and down full of righteousness. We looked each other a lot, he came straight to the point: "I will be driving the change immediately, and would like to contact you!" I was impressed by his straightforward, gently nodded. I am a very simple person, hoping to have the skills to find a man, and lived together. Liu Liming return to the force, we have launched Hong-Yan Chuan, he's looking forward to married life, I would like to have been dead set on his life.

. In the meantime, Erjie is also important for me to worry about the marriage. She asked many of the Trustee, who intends to introduce it to my week. Zhou is said to the vicinity of the station where the business and economic conditions of good character is also very good. At that time, but I have been identified and Liu Liming relationship, my life has been in default of his existence. I can not., then why go to see other men do? Erjie advised me: "better than pre-marital involvement suffer after marriage, you can contact these people, make good choices, is in charge of their own, so do not rush into a decision with personal problems ... ..." "Do not say I can not betray a soldier !, "I rudely interrupted Er Jie, firmly and do not want to see where the week. We have also learned that from this moment on, I will never miss a week to where it is fate ... ... In 1984, Liu Liming troops from the job back, we got married in a matter of course. After marriage, I found that because of our long-term separation between the two places, I do not know him. Muna his character, the ability to very poor life, I am very disappointed with him. He held a bus transport company, as a taxi driver, had contracted trucks, spare always, extremely tired, very few at home and I say, take home the money pitifully small. Pepsi sorrow poor husband and wife, the family is the basic sales by Xiao Baihuo I maintain, have been far from easy. He can not support a family, home, I have decided by small things. During this marriage, I do not see the hope that life can only be patient.

. 1992, my family's economic condition has improved, we bought a house east. To make a living, I rented a cell with a window, to sell food.

. On one occasion, I am finishing the goods in the shop, found along a pair of eyes are watching me, I looked up and the road is empty, no one is. Later, there have been many such cases. Soon, I listen to inadvertently start Erjie: "In the past, to introduce to you the week where you are small!" My heart is like a Deng 1, 10, was printed under the name: Where the week. I began to suspect that, whether in the area and met him, met him to be able to recognize not ... ... "I simply do not want to hold her husband is not really a derailment, because I have betrayed the spirit of him. I can not help themselves The heart seems to be driving in, knows very well that the front is a dead end, dead, is unable to stop, can only go all the way ... ... "

. that year, her husband's work made new progress, he began to help open buses a couple, his family very well, he will have a monthly income of more than 2000 yuan. However, he learned to play mahjong, bubble tea house all day. I have said several times that he, thoughts, but I think he works so hard, and no other hobbies, was left with him. I have one at home, often feel deserted. One day, sunshine, I quilt hanging out on the balcony, inadvertently look at the people across the balcony, dressed in a blue Ju Jiafu men are slowly drying clothes. He also seems to me a look, I look at him on the balcony and the air. "He is a week where!" At that time, I'm convinced that this very idea. Although I have never seen him, but I know that is the week where he is the man that I miss. I think that will be a hard man hanging out the clothes, certainly hurts his wife, I know how to live, warm and generous.

. I began to feel very good life, that is, a person in the store to sell things, not boring, and thought nothing, thinking nothing, as if walking on clouds in life, uncertain and ambiguous, in a It is difficult to describe the state of life. I started up, began to smile, the beginning of a fantasy in the area where we can meet each other for a look, and then not saying anything, their quietly away ... ... Unfortunately, I imagine if nothing has happened. However, we have a different understanding ... ... 12 o'clock every day I start cooking, and where a week's time to cook exactly. I am humming a song, he looked busy in the kitchen, and then happily vegetables, Wash rice. I have come to feel that he is looking at me. Sometimes, if he did not appear on the opposite kitchen, I felt driven to distraction, he is not worried sick, is not a business trip, when to come back ... ... I have such a love of nothingness, control their own heart, Seems to be in the car, knows very well that the front is dead, is unable to stop, can only go all the way.

. One day, my husband went to the owner of the home row, I said to her husband and his wife had improper. I do not kind to him the Hong Zou. It seems to me that her husband, in spite of many shortcomings, but the heart is still in the home, he can not have an affair. I think that even if he and others really took place, I will forgive him, because my heart has betrayed him. As a result, I did not bring her husband over the matter.

. days are 0:00, as usual silent husband to go home. I see that side of the window of her car is parked in the courtyard of our house before. I asked her husband: "You hit the car back ah?" Touyebutai husband, speak impromptu: "I walk back!" And then went to the bathroom. I do not have to continue to ask, turning the bed. He is not guilty? Well, I think the maintenance of him, and he has my lie, I feel a bit scared. But I just feel that he has to live up to my confidence, but it means nothing jealous. I can not understand how their own can be so calm. Now come, it is because in my heart, who has been the week as a "wife", even though we have nothing had happened.

. then again, I have to ask where her sister, Zhou's wife, who gently, Xian-hui, who also has a cute daughter. I did not jealous, he was quietly pleased. Sometimes, I can not help but imagine, if I had chosen the week where life is not another like it?

. I was so in love was a week where for 10 years. His attention has never been away, and never thought to be more deviate from them. I do not want to destroy other people's families, but also do not want to betray her husband in the physical ... ... "going through so many tribulations, I know, I met with him, the separation is to"

. perhaps no one believes that, I think, and I have a week where the magic of understanding. One night in 2002, I had a strange dream, where one week alone lying in a dark room, I Xiachu in a cold sweat. Not long after her husband some effort to drive a small accident, sustained injuries to his hands was admitted to the hospital. I registered, who has faced weeks of his wife, she said that the week where guests fracture of the leg. My dream has confirmed! Responsibility for, well, I take care of her husband, the pain of the heart is where the week. He has been injured, I did not in a position to concern him. It is a feeling, let me pain.

. this matter, a great impact on me. My love of weeks where do not have any substantive meaning, but also inviting me pain. In order to shake off the week about where I no longer time for cooking, laundry, and even do not want to be at home, I often invite some of the sisters out of singing, dancing. I tried to tell their own stories to listen to them, that kind of person who advised me: "hurry off the idea, it is necessary possessed by the devil!" Some friends have turned up their noses, I am laughing at your unrequited love, that I kept well Days, however, to find their own Zuishou. I tried a variety of methods, where a week is lingering in my mind, hand in hand. I am more and more depressed and felt all over the world people are laughing at me.

. I can not resolve the boredom of these are written into the diary: "Let us pass fate, the fate of us together again, which is in heaven deliberately make fun of me ... ..." But these words her husband had been found He asked me: "Who is this man in the end?" I promised him that as long as they do not look for trouble, I will not tell him to hide. After listening to my husband's story, but do not blame me, he gently said: "I can not understand, but I hope you slowly come out!" In this matter, I am particularly grateful for her husband if he At that time, I forced my own estimate on the total collapse.

. From then on, I began to take the initiative in devising ways and means to let out of their own during the period of the spirit of love. In 2003, my husband and the rental house, leaving the original home to buy. Can not see her husband play mahjong, as long as the time at home with me. And weeks where I have never met, however, to forget the "love" for so many years, this is easier said than done? In such a hopeless love, my body is getting worse, not physical, doctors say that I am a blood shortage.

. Not long ago, I would seek to sign, sign reads: "Everyone has the sincerity, there are sensing God, to work hard to get the most difficult, the body may have to retire!" I probably come to feel that this is the means and I Where a week. On another occasion, I dream for a long time of the death of his father, he told me: "my daughter, do you want a good life!" I think I should do this mission at a time when the end of this year may leave Zhensi, dreamlike Ruhuan The feelings. Perhaps, in order to meet our separation ... ... Now, I have an idea in the new year, I want to give an account of this feeling. I would like to come out about where the week, calmly about the exchange. Then, let all these stories are wind, I started a new life.

. reporters Notes million to clear an interview with selected sites in the picturesque Wangjiang Park, to meet, I guess, it must be thought of a delicate woman, she would bring I have never heard of the love story. Sure enough, her story was very much shocked me: a woman, spent 10 years in the good years on a "platonic love"!

. I think that perhaps the so-called spirit of love, is actually an illusion. In the trivial and a heavy marriage, where the emergence of weeks to become clear of a million fantasies and spiritual sustenance. Million and no real clear understanding of where the week, she does not love the real life of the week where. It is only a shadow of the Mirage warmth, perfect, so I can not but carry clear million. She always asked myself: "If we had a week where I choose to ... ..." Many of life "if" but "if" and will not happen, give an example of pop: playing mahjong when you touch a card, And not the result. But if you do not touch that card, and you will be able to? Not necessarily. Do not touch because, after the card will force change. Million in the same clear, with no weeks where an unhappy combination, a combination of well-being may not necessarily be made.

. if, sunny million earlier through a number of" awareness "week where, he learned the true image, and not always put him in fantasy, may be long out of the predicament .

. I think, clear million should accept reality and feel better in real life, such as a good life now, a good husband, such as a fantasy memory, it is best not to break easily, the impact on the parties concerned Normal life. Perhaps, through the circuitous third-party "clearly" this man is the only solution the best way to end happily. Life is no turning back, the better off it is most important.

(Editor: JIANG Hui)