I am still a virgin, but I made a virginity embarrassment. I will be married next month, the fiance is the man I love, I do not have the courage to tell him who I was a virgin. Do not understand why people will think this is not absurd.

. Liu Apple 30-year-old Beijing woman married a foreign senior managers

. even more hard to believe that six years ago, I had a marriage knot, and I did not have been the relationship between the ex-husband.

. a long story. Six years ago, I came to Beijing from overseas, do not attract much attention in a small marketing company, income is not high, pressure is a big day, too tired to death, but can only return to the bus Ji Zhao 600 rent money To a small cottage. At that time, I do not have decent clothes, no entertainment, no night life. At that time, I'm very satisfied with the living conditions, but I do not have a decent degree, the appearance of not very well, in the capital of Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, a mixed-like, is even more difficult.

. up to a cocktail party in the understanding of the Cheng-ming, I only vaguely see the "tight encirclement" of sparkle. Cheng Ming is more than 50-year-old Singaporean businessman, although the business did not, but it can be considered wealthy. The lonely old man saw me, although I was not pretty, but at least still young.

. that shortly after the reception, Li Cheng-ming told me to start fresh flowers on the dinner plus the fierce offensive. For the old man's intention, I am naturally very well. At first I only just cope with, did not expect that, a month after he proposed to me, and I promise to live in Singapore superior life. I am not indifferent to - I did not foolish to believe that this larger than my father's old men give me the happiness of life, but Singapore's permanent residence is attractive to me, and I always wanted to go there to read University. After several sleepless nights, I put to him my request - if married, it was only "in name only" marriage.

. at the time he did not have the slightest hesitation, I agreed. Perhaps, like his age men, marriage is no more than Zhao Geban to disperse the loneliness of single life (his ex-wife passed away three years ago).

. awareness of less than three months after the wedding, held in Singapore. In addition to a good girlfriend, my family and friends know that I am not married to the fact that they cheated me say that I am a post-graduate study to Singapore.

. to leave the country, and I am the old man "false marriage"

. days in Singapore do not like me at first it's a beautiful illusion - Cheng Ming is not only not rich, not even the middle class. After the wedding the old man's shortcomings were exposed to more and more, small gas and no longer as willing as before to marry me to spend money, even in the Chaimiyouyan issue also Koumen. However, I successfully become a Singapore university students, which I am grateful that he is the only reason.

. To put it plainly, and I just leave him to marry, or Pianhun. Cheng-ming and I married, though living, there is no real life husband and wife (no relations). Three years later, I got the right of abode, and then he just divorced and returned to the development of Beijing. Cheng Ming, I hate to deceive his feelings, and I appreciate that this injury is not one right. Divorce, I told them that he never contacted.

. come now, three years "in name only" sham marriage, in my mind is not how much memory left. Although the marriage I have slowly changed, apart from the body is still a virgin, I almost changed a person. That side of the three years I insist on working while studying, I not only get a decent diploma, which is three years, a savings income. I feel that they have become more and more confident, more and more women have a taste.

. returned to Beijing after working in a very well-known foreign companies. Through their own efforts, I am in career success, this is the result of three years ago that I can not imagine. Compared with the women of the same age, I would not only help themselves, and the income of money. In Beijing, I had a dream I have the freedom of superior life.

. However, emotionally I do not have been smug, I think it may be retribution. I used to be deceived men, it is my turn now deceived by the man. Those false men, some exchanges did not reveal how long the naked desire nothing more than a fancy to my body or money for such a man hated me. So back to Beijing after several years, my love life is almost empty. Fortunately, work stress peacetime, I do not have a lot of time to think about these things.

(internship Editor: Rachel)